Pornography Addiction

"I think dirty thoughts are bad!"

Something I desperately don't want to admit is that I'm addicted to pornography. I find myself endlessly browsing 18+ sites and being constantly exposed to porn images and gifs. I'm not even sure why I do this so excessively. Maybe I enjoy seeing sex, maybe I'm waiting for some interesting form of sex to pop up, who knows. What I do know is that it's taking up too much time. There are days where I would just sit down in front of my computer, attempt to be productive, and then see that the day is over because I procrastinated on pornography. I mean, when I procrastinate, I at least want to be doing one of my hobbies to procrastinate. But nope, just lurking nsfw sites all day. I have to stop this and I took the first step to admit it's a problem.

My second step is to force self-control. Last month I participated in no fap September. It was painstakingly difficult at the final week, but I did manage to pull it off. Although I did no fap, I chose to continuously view pornography throughout the month. Not the best idea since being on no fap was distracting me from my other tasks and being super horny from not fapping meant that when you viewed porn, you wanted more. It was a feat that I managed until the end, but the minute September was over; I fell back on the wagon. I was proud of my accomplishment and felt that it was no problem. However, days pasted by and my reading week flew past me spent on something so unproductive. I definitely had to stop. I hated being so unproductive. Today I am banning myself from all adult sites. They are bad and this is for my benefit. I guess you could say it's another no fap challenge, this time done properly. I hope I can stay on track and rid this bad habit.