Future Children Names

One thing I find quite funny is that I have no intentions of being in a relationship. Even the thought of having children never seemed like a priority for me. It's how I stand right now, maybe it'll change in the future. Who knows. But the funny part is despite that, I already have names decided for my future kids. If I have a daughter, I would want to call her Melissa. If I have a son, I would want to name him Edward. I've had these names picked out ever since high school. I don't really remember where I picked up Melissa from or why I really love that name. Edward on the other hand is inspired a bit from Fullmetal Alchemist's Edward. Although, that not being the only reason, I do enjoy how Edward sounds. Name deciding was just something funny I was reminded of today.  

Extra: I have some name candidates for a second daughter. I narrowed it down to Jasmine which is another inspired name from Pokemon Silver's Jasmine. I'm pretty picky with things, so it's surprising seeing name choices narrowed down this much.

Magical Astronomy

"There's Deneb, Altair, Vega."

I remember returning home from a Montreal convention. During the drive, some parts of the highway weren't lit and a beautiful night sky was visible. By looking at stars, I felt a wonderful feeling. It made me appreciate how stunning the world could be. Yeah, it sounds pretty corny, but the sky was just so vast and breath taking. One activity I would really like to do in the future is to go stargazing. Maybe invest into a telescope and research constellations and meteor shower dates. I did have a chance to watch the lunar eclipse which happened on October 8th. It was exciting to see the shadow of the Earth slowly encroach the moon. Hopefully, I can do more astronomy related activities in the future.

These Past Four Years in University

You know it's hard to believe four years have went by in university. It sucks to say this, but I won't be nearing graduation until a year from now. I'm unmotivated and I have a tendency to give up. I'm also lazier than anyone could ever imagine. I don't hand in assignments, I don't go to classes, and I don't study for exams. I'm basically the perfect representation of the college senior meme. Hell it's amazing that I haven't been kicked out yet (there have been times where I was really close to). Although I messed up a lot in university, I did learn a lot of valuable lessons in the process which I'd like to share.

Pornography Addiction

"I think dirty thoughts are bad!"

Something I desperately don't want to admit is that I'm addicted to pornography. I find myself endlessly browsing 18+ sites and being constantly exposed to porn images and gifs. I'm not even sure why I do this so excessively. Maybe I enjoy seeing sex, maybe I'm waiting for some interesting form of sex to pop up, who knows. What I do know is that it's taking up too much time. There are days where I would just sit down in front of my computer, attempt to be productive, and then see that the day is over because I procrastinated on pornography. I mean, when I procrastinate, I at least want to be doing one of my hobbies to procrastinate. But nope, just lurking nsfw sites all day. I have to stop this and I took the first step to admit it's a problem.

My second step is to force self-control. Last month I participated in no fap September. It was painstakingly difficult at the final week, but I did manage to pull it off. Although I did no fap, I chose to continuously view pornography throughout the month. Not the best idea since being on no fap was distracting me from my other tasks and being super horny from not fapping meant that when you viewed porn, you wanted more. It was a feat that I managed until the end, but the minute September was over; I fell back on the wagon. I was proud of my accomplishment and felt that it was no problem. However, days pasted by and my reading week flew past me spent on something so unproductive. I definitely had to stop. I hated being so unproductive. Today I am banning myself from all adult sites. They are bad and this is for my benefit. I guess you could say it's another no fap challenge, this time done properly. I hope I can stay on track and rid this bad habit.

Figuring out How to Blog

My face when trying to figure out my blog. No, I don't mean learning the dashboard and all that stuff. I mean trying to find a writing style that doesn't sound awkward. I'm not relatively new to blogging, but whenever I would read over my posts I just wanted to die over how bad they sounded. I realized using an overly formal speech wasn't for me. I'm not any good at it and I don't enjoy using it. I just did it because I wanted to sound "smart". In the end, there were a lot of long sentences with shitty synonyms that just didn't feel right to me. I decided to just impulsively post instead of spending hours and hours editing so much. I really shouldn't be brooding over my writing that much because I really do want to post content. I just can't believe it took so long to figure out.